Comfortably Numb.

So I’ve been on Citalopram for three weeks now. It’s taken some getting used to. I don’t get the shakes much anymore but I have a much shorter attention span now. I struggle to keep focused on conversations and I find that I keep interrupting people. This is a pet peeve of mine. I have a huge appetite now but I’m not comfort eating.
This morning, I found myself in a position in which I’d crumble in a near-hysteric mess. Today I didn’t care. I felt nothing. Is it bad that I’m content not feeling anything? Is it bad that I’d prefer to live like this than anything else?
I have an appointment tomorrow to talk about the first few weeks on the happy pills. I also have an ECG booked to try and find the reason for the crippling chest pains I’ve been having. I’ll let you know how it turned out.

5 Comments

  1. I don’t think it’s bad to not want to feel anything. When one has felt so much for so long it’s almost a relief to not feel for a bit, like a vacation from all the…Muchness. I was on Citalopram in 2012 but we didn’t get along and I was actually more depressed! Hope it works for you and that things start to feel a bit better x

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